| Location | Birmingham |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 3/1995 |
| Date of Death | 3/1995 |
| Visitors | 491 since 15/08/2007 |
| Creator |
Richard was born sleeping on 9th March 1995. Richard is the twin brother of James. At 20 weeks i
developed problems with my pregnancy, my belly got bigger and bigger, so big I felt my skin was
going to rip open.
We went to hospital to find out what was wrong and why I was in so much pain. A scan showed that
there was loads of water surrounding Richard and James was actually starved of the fluid and being
squashed by Richard. it was panic stations, no one was really sure of what to do. The doctors then
decided to try a precedure from Canada. The precedure may cause me to miscarry ( We was told) but
without it we would loose the babies anyway. A large very thin needle was pushed into Richards water
sack and slowly over some time the water was drained away to relieve the pressure on James and
myself. It was all watched very carefully on the scan, keeping check on the possition of the needle.
I remember laughing some of the time as we watched Richard try to shove the needle out of his way.
It all went really well apart from one scare where it seemed premature labour had been started.
After that I had to attend the hospital every week, just to check and I had injections every day to
help you both grow.
One the last vist to hospital, again i was kept in as my blood preasure was to high. The doctor said
ok great once we bring your b p down we will book you for a section.
I stayed in hospital and waited, every day I went on the twin monitor to check you were both well.
The 8th of March was much the same but there was no twin monitor today. It was needed in the labour
ward. I asked the nurse to check everything as the babies didn't seem to be moving to well. All
day I was put off. It was gone midnight before the monitor reached me, I was upset and your daddy
wouldn't go home till we knew you were both ok. They quickly scanned and the doctor said see
everything is fine, the monitor was taken away and after a while the nurse told me to get some sleep
I would have a full scan in the morning.
9th March I was taken on my own for a scan, I was taken somewhere different to normal, I felt there
was something wrong as they started to scan me. A nurse I had never seen before looked at me and
said. ONE OF YOUR BABIES IS DEAD. Just like that, I had no one to hold me, no one to talk to, I just
cried as they wheeled me out and back to my room where they left me alone. They called your daddy
but didn't tell him anything. I had to tell him when he arrived.
We had over come so many problems through the whole pregnancy. This was the last thing we were
expecting now, not at 36 weeks. Later that day I was taken for a section by epidural.
It should have been such a wonderful experience but daddy and I just couldn't stop the tears
from falling down our face. The doctors shouted ITS A BOY. I just cried as they then said 2 boys but
much quieter as you were born. They brought James straight to us but not you. I looked at the nurse
coming from the otherside of the room and said where is the other baby. She brought you to me. You
looked so perfect I thought you would wake up. But you didn't.
Richard died of a condition called twin to twin transfusion which caused heart failure.
WE may not have loads and loads of memories playing games and watching you but it hurts us both just
the same.
We wish we had some time to be with you and watch you as we have James. We will never forget you and
every day we wake and look at James we know we are also looking at you.
Play safely Richard, now nanny has joined you, you can give her all the hugs she's missed from
you and all the hugs she misses from James too.
love you loads sweet heart. night night. x
When
When do I tell you
There's something I need to tell you
But I really don't know how.
But the something I must tell you
Really needs to be said now.
You keep asking for a brother
And asking why it can't be.
But my special boy there was another
You have a brother you can't see.
Your brother is an angel
Dancing high up in the sky.
You see Richard was'nt well
So we had to say goodbye.
We love you very dearly
And we love Richard just as much.
The only difference clearly
Is Richard we can't touch.
But when we look at you
It all becomes so clear
That when we cuddle you
We also know Richard is near.
So darling be aware of this
You have a brother too.
A little boy we will always miss
A little boy just like you.
By Dawn
4th July 2002
When God calls little children to dwell with Him above, We mortals sometime question the wisdom of His love. For no heartache compares with the death of one small child Who does so much to make our world, seem wonderful and mild Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold, So He picks a rosebud, before it can grow old. God knows how much we need them, and so He takes but few To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view. Believing this is difficult still somehow we must try, The saddest word mankind knows will always be 'Goodbye.' So when a little child departs, we who are left behind Must realize God loves children, Angels are hard to find. 'Author Unknown'
My Little Angel
I felt your presence there inside of me,
nestled soft and warm;
Sweet scent of baby's breath,
precious words left unadorned.
I saw your tiny heartbeat,
then I knew that you were fine;
A perfect baby we created,
one that would be mine.
Then that tragic day it came
there was nothing I could do,
Only wait and hope
for the precious life of you.
Yes in the beginning
your daddy was afraid;
Only he would love you unconditional
and never run away.
He loved you more this I do know,
as he cried for you that day,
When the doctor said that you were gone,
daddy wanted you to stay.
He would have held you close to him,
and see your perfect form,
A gift of daddy's love,
would have kept you safe and warm.
Only now you are an angel over me
beautiful and bare,
My heart would hurt if you cried for me
and mommy was not there.
Still we are together in my heart and memories,
You are still a part of my memory.
Rest gentle now 'sweet baby' there is no pain
you are never alone,
I know you are with the guiding angels
in you peaceful home.
I will come with you someday
only now is not my time,
Then we will be together again
again you will be mine.
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